It has been over a year since my last blog post and so much has happened and changed! I am now closer to a "farm" than I have ever been before. I have done so much shadow work and let go of so much emotional control of my life. I have lived in 3 different states and 4 different cities since the last time I sat and wrote a blog! I closed my website down and mostly my business to re-brand my company. I have discontinued some products and added jewelry and smudge sticks. I have reformulated some of our favorite products.
I feel like in order to catch up I have to start from the last time I was here! I was in Lilburn, Ga. coming off of Essence fest and hoping to work in Atlanta for the summer to save some money to go to massage therapy school. I was looking at having to pay for massage school out of pocket and there was no way I could do that living in Connecticut! I ended up staying in Georgia months past the time I had planned not saving much money in the process. I had also started researching massage schools to decide where I was going next or if I was going to stay in Georgia.
So I ended up finding the "perfect" massage school in Raleigh, NC. I applied and got accepted and started planning for the move and school. My daughter had gotten married and had another son so I needed to make a trip to Connecticut to meet my newest love. Few months later I spent a little time at home and made the move to Raleigh. It was about 20 minutes away from my dream farm in Rocky Mount, NC. so of course I am thinking it is destined and everything is going to be great! Please let's not forget that I still have no money so I have no idea how I am really going to pull this off, but I was certainly going to try!
I went from Connecticut to Georgia, have my stuff & moved to Raleigh. I paid for a hotel room in an extended stay hotel for 2 weeks. I figured that would give me enough time to find a job and at the very least I'd be able to pay for the room. It took me a little over a month to find a job, but I was able to borrow and scrape up enough money to stay. Then I was informed that I would not be able to start school the following month. I just refused to be discouraged so I decided to make it work. That lasted all of 6 months. I found a room to rent in this nice lady's home, but as soon as I got comfortable she took a job in Washington.
While I was in Raleigh I got more involved in African traditional religion. I started becoming more in tune with my higher self and my ancestors. I began making products geared more to my spirituality and offering more of myself to my business. I started to realize that though I had inherited all of these gifts I have from my ancestors this journey was mine and mine alone. I became able to hear them and feel them nudging me to stand on their shoulders, but to run my own race. I found my lane and though it was scary I have never been more at peace, nor as confident as I am now that I've accepted myself as a healer in my own right.
So I decide to go back to Charlotte, NC. I had lived there before and it was actually the reason I wanted a farm and was the first place I looked into massage school. By this time a friend had told me about air bnb and I was able to save a little money. I was in Charlotte for all of a month before I was told my grandparents' house was not being taken care of properly and my aunt was about to rent it out. I had just found a job and was scheduled to start the day before I decided to move to Prichard, Al. Now anyone that knows anything about me knows that this is the last place you should expect me to be living, but here I am!
I love it! I live in a very big, paid for house. My roommates might be a little on the annoying side most times, but even they are comforting and helpful sometimes. Shortly after I arrived here I found out my grandfather had a garden in the backyard! I have to tell you all about getting here and what I walked into another time!! Whew Chile it was a hot mess!! I have, however persevered and the house is clean and I am 90% done cleaning the yard. It took me 2 months and a couple thousand dollars to get the house back to livable. Now we can concentrate on my mini farm and repairs/renovations to the house and my business.
I am already starting my herb garden back up inside some old tires my uncle had, that I am painting. There is an old boat back there I am going to turn into a flower bed and the vegetables will be planted in the garden. I am thinking of turning part of the shed into a greenhouse to grow some medicinal. I am seriously thinking of planting some fruit trees as well. There's so much I want to do! It wasn't until I let go of my idea of how I would obtain all of my extravagant dreams that the solutions were basically handed to me on a silver platter.
My re-branding is complete and clearly my website is back up and my business is 100% back up and running. I am currently being encouraged to open a brick and mortar location, which is also a dream of mine. Massage therapy school has been put on the back burner for another family tradition sort of. I am looking into being a birth and end of life doula and eventually a midwife. I come from a long line of midwives and the idea of assisting in the process of bringing life into the world is so exciting and life affirming to me!
I am further along in my spiritual journey. I have finally been put in a position where I can freely practice without fear of consequence or judgment. Once I completely accepted myself I found that other people, that I never expected accepted and supported me as well. I put up an ancestor altar and I feel like everything just started to fall into place and my dream started forming in the physical right before my eyes. I realized my dream of a legacy was manifested long before I ever thought about it. It was built by all the women before me that made it possible for me to live in my truth.
I am almost there and I couldn't be happier about the journey I have taken to get here. I absolutely can't wait to see it once we have finished, even though I may never be finished! I am immensely enjoying the journey back to the farm since we last crossed paths! In the coming months I will go more in depth about my journey thus far getting to this point and the adventures of cleaning the house, re-branding my business and my spirituality. I am so grateful to be back on this platform and can't wait to see what this has in store for us! Thank you for being here and I can't wait to share my journey with you!